Life's Cruelty

I give up. :/

I know it is because of stress.

Everyday, I woke up with a smile on my face, thinking that this day would be much better than yesterday--but when I woke up today, everything changes. Had a poker face on my face and realized that not everything and everyone would likely to  help you in your everyday living, NOT even your family. (Just saying) Its just a sad reality. Never expected that this day would come. Been stressed at school, and still stressed about home stuff. It was never been this hard for me to adjust with the new environment. Its just that, I can't think of anybody would do such a thing. How SELFISH thing to do! When I do things I include everybody in it, don't they realize that I need a rest, too? GAWDAMMIT! My patience is in the danger zone right now. -.- It really pisses me off. ugh. Maybe, It's better if I would be on my own now. CLEAN my part of the room, COOK for myself, ARRANGE my stuff, STUDY on my own and IGNORE everyone around me. I'll try not to ask a help from anybody. I'm on my own now--it's about time! btw, I think about to try the suicide thing~~any minute now. :/ 

I don't know what to do first. -.-

 

Over load! >.<

It's about time, I'll prioritize myself, my own needs and wants. >:3
Too much understanding other people makes my life miserable. >.

Identity is what they're aiming for! (just saying)

FRIENDSHIP! :)

In life, I believed in the quote: "Friendship is always there for you whenever you are sad or happy; They won't let you down when you are in your deepest moment"  I already proved that when I was in my elementary year, I found out who are my BFF's (Best Friends Forever) they've been there in my happy and in my most tragedy (awful) days that happened to me. So, I am blessed for having them in my life; they are a sent from the above to guide me in the right paths. Never Imagined that I would be growing old this fast. Years passed and we graduated I never knew that, the day would come; and I thought I was still a kiddo--back then because, they treated me like one.

In my secondary year or when I stepped into my highschool year, It made me realized that not everyone you are friends with, will be the one who will stay in your life in a long period of time. Nevertheless, those people who uses you and needed you, was the sneakiest part of my life. There, I proved that not everyone is REAL nor TRUE to you and they will just use you, sometimes they would backstab or talkshit behind you whenever they have to. Eventhough, I have an abundant friends it doesn't mean that they knew the REAL ME or the story behind my every single laughs, tears, nor smiles. They just knew my name and the gossips they could dig up. I never REGRET anything I've done nor said to them, because one way or another I helped them wholeheartedly and it's for them to be happy eventhough I am not being acknowledged for it.

             

The coolest and the neverforgotten year for me is when I was a Junior, because in some point or another we were a FAMILY. In lilo's phrase: "Ohanna means family and family means nobody get left behind"  We had the total and awesome bond of all the other sections and I was happy to have and be a part of that family. Eversince, I never thought that the total and amazing bond would be over so soon. Added lesson for me, PEOPLE DO CHANGE. We set aside our differences back then, and some of us were hoping for it to come back but in reality, Some wants or needs to have a name in the school in short, all they want is to be recognized and have their own identity. I assumed that it would happen anytime soon but I never hope for them to change. Usually, I miss them and I still think what would happened if we understand each other and just ignore the smallest things.

       

Highschool is one of the most memorable part of my life. Because of the lessons and realizations that had given me. I am still blessed to have a few people or group of friends who are true to you whatever happens in the near future. I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH.

            

So here I am, as a college student and as a freshmen. Adjusting again because of the new environment, and wishing to have a group friends like I have in my hometown or just a few that I know I could rely on to whatever happens .. 

             

Still, having a major tough decisions whether I would join in an org and be an officer, or just focused on my studies and aim 1. And I am still looking for my own identity in my college life--hoping to have the right and true one. :)

      

*FINGERS CROSSED* for a good or the best year of my life! --- hopefully! :D

Open for suggestions, reactions, comments .. etc.

7 articles about moving on. *gasp*

It is always easier said than done. At habang gumagawa ako ng articles ko, nakikinig ako ng mga kantang alam kong iniyakan ko. Walang reference. Walang research sa Google. Isusulat ko ang 7 articles na to base sa buhay ko.

At habang pinapakinggan ko ang mga kantang nakapagpaiyak sakin, kasabay ng kalansing ng keyboard, unti-unting nagbabalik ang mga alaala ng nakaraan. Mahirap mag-move on. Madaming sakit. Madaming pag-iisip.

At kahit sabihin mo pang andyan ang mga kaibigan para damayan ka, at the end of the day, kapag uwian na, pag gising mo sa umaga at sober ka na, nagsisink in muli ang katotohanang WALA NA SIYA.

Hindi ako expert sa pag-momove on. Hindi ako marunong magmove on. Hindi ko nga alam kung nakapagmove on na ba talaga ako. Kasi sa totoo lang, hindi mo naman malalaman kung talagang ok ka na. Malalaman mo nalang isang araw kapag nakita mo yung taong nanakit sa’yo at hindi mo na nararamdaman yung sakit sa kaibuturan ng puso mo.

Oo, ako ang laging nakikipagbreak. Kung meron mang nang-iwan sakin, isang tao lang yun.

Siguro tinatanong mo na ko kung paano ako naging credible source kung paano magmove on kung ako naman lagi ang nakikipagbreak? Simple lang, it takes two to tango. Nagkataon lang na mas nasasaktan yung taong nireject ko.

Mahirap din magmove on pag ikaw ang nang-iwan. Bakit? Kasi nasaktan ka rin. Nasaktan ako ng marealize kong hindi nya tinupad ang pangako ni exA; na hindi ako ang priority ni exB; or booty call lang ako ni exC. Nasaktan ako dahil di nila kayang makipagcompromise sakin. Na feeling nila demanding ako kahit ang gusto ko lang naman ay ang oras nila at effort nila.

Noong nakahanap naman ako ng taong sa tingin kong perpekto, iniwan naman ako.

Bottom line, pag nagdecide kang mahalin ang isang tao, humanda ka na masaktan. At kung talagang hindi kayo, hindi kayo. Kahit anong salba mo sa relasyon, if you really can’t stand your partner, leave. Kahit anong pogi pa nyan sa paningin mo noong una, pag paulit-ulit ka na nyang sinasaktan, nawawala ang magic.

Question remains. How to move on? Yan din ang sinusubukan kong diskubrihin sa articles na ginagawa ko.

Let the pain and you become one.
one of the best how to move on tips I’ve learned from
Song Birds of Pain by Garry Kilworth.

How to Move on After a Relationship. (ehem!)

1. Start by accepting that your relationship has ended and is now in the past. Perhaps your trust or confidence took a hit and you might feel hurt, but better days are ahead
2. If you’re still talking to your ex and it brings back feelings or emotions while you two can/should no longer be together, then stop the communication. In many situations, it’s okay to be friends but if talking to them keeps you from moving on with your life and finding someone new, then you have to bite the bullet. Remember to never call when you’re intoxicated and don’t answer their phone calls.
3. Focus on yourself. When in a relationship, you usually have another person to take into consideration. Take this time to find out more about what you like to do and what makes you happy. It’s important to be emotionally available when trying to move on to perhaps someone new.
4. Get out of the house. If you have activities that you haven’t taken up in a while, get back to doing them. If you have an activity that you’ve always wanted to try, this might be the ideal time to start.
5. Always smile and say hello, especially to people you find attractive. There is no better invitation and it might even work wonders for your self-esteem and confidence. You have no control over where you might meet the great love of your life, if you’re open to moving on and dating new people, it will happen if you take the time to just smile and say hello.
6. Go out on dates. While some people need time for themselves before getting back out there again, the only way to know if you’re ready is to go out on a date a see how it feels. You should always be honest with yourself and the other person so at least they know what can be expected from you. If you’re a guy and don’t have dates readily available, go out with a female friend or even your cousin. It might help to get you back into the swing of things. For women, the same rule applies.

TIPS && WARNINGS:

1. Give yourself time to make sure you're ready to date, but the sooner you get out there, the quicker you might find yourself ready to move on.
2. Don't hold onto the past because you no longer have control over it and don't be afraid of the future because you never know what might happen.
3. Try to avoid bringing up a bad break-up when talking to new people.

Tag. Tag. :)

NAME: FRESHY JOY ISAGAN SERAPIO

AGE: 16

BIRTHDATE: June 5, 1994

PRESENT ADDRESS: Aklan! pwede mang Ilo-Ilo lang! :)))

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

I wanna read your answers :)) so please do it! :D

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people in the right hand corner of the app then click publish.) 

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. last beverage = TUBIG

2. last phone call = RHOELLA

3. last text message = MYKE UY

4. last song you listened to = Sascha Dupont - You're the one

 5. last time you cried = OCTOBER 17, 2010

  

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. dated someone twice = YES.

7. been cheated on = TWICE.

8. kissed someone & regretted it = ALMOST!

9. lost someone special = TOTALLY.

10. been depressed = YEAP.

11. been drunk and threw up = NOT A DRINKER.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. ORANGE

13. BLUE

14. GREY

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend = LOTS!

16. Fallen out of love =  A COUPLE OF TIMES. ;))

17. Laughed until you cried = TOTALLY.

18. Met someone who changed you =  YEAP.

19. Found out who your true friends were = UHUH! :DD

20. Found out someone was talking about you = YEASH, BITCHES! >:))

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend's list= YEAH.

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life = 95% :DD

24. Do you have any pets = YEAH, I HAVE TWO DOGGIES!

25. Do you want to change your name = Maybe the last name. C:

26. What did you do for your last birthday = HAD FUN! :D

27. What time did you wake up today = exactly at 7:56 .. :))

28. What were you doing at midnight last night = messaging pipz. :)

 29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = have some fun with my favorite bands. :)) 

 30. Last time you saw your Mother = uhh, about a week ago

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = my bad aspects. ;)

32. What are you listening to right now = last song played.

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? = not EVEN close. HAHA! boyet pwede pa. :DD

34. What's getting on your nerves right now = nothing, I'm still having a great time w/ my summer. :D

35. Most visited webpage = Tumblr && Facebook.

37. Nickname = juyjuy, dui dui. :P

38. Relationship Status =  looking for someone. C:

39. Zodiac sign = GEMINI

40. He or She = She.

41. Elementary = Kalibo Pilot Elementary School

42. High School = Regional Science High School for Region VI

43. College = CONFUSED. :3

44. Hair color =  Black.

45. Long or short = Oo na! putot na kung putot. asaaar! -.-

 46. Height = 5'1 ??

47. Do you have a crush on someone? = yeap.

48. What do you like about yourself? = my imperfections. C:

49. Piercings = yeah.

50. Tattoos = not in a zillion years! HAHA.

51. Righty or lefty= Leftyyy. :D

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery= nope!

53. First piercing = just got one. on my ears!

54. First best friend = they are three. :)) namely, Valerie, Alyka, && Erwin..

55. First sport you joined = not an athlete. :))

56. First vacation =  Manila.

RIGHT NOW: 

59. Eating = Lunch.

60. Drinking = Iced tea.

61. I'm about to = type in letter F

62. Listening to = last song played.

63. Waiting for = mom to have a flight, home.

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? = yes. about after college && got a job. :)

65. Get Married? = DUH! yaaah. ;))

66. Career? = Future Chef. C:

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes = EYES

68. Hugs or kisses= BOTH

69. Shorter or taller = TALLER!

70. Older or Younger = OLDER by 3 years but A year or two is enough. :">

71. Romantic or spontaneous = BOTH

72. Nice stomach or nice arms = NORMAL

73. Sensitive or loud = Both

74. Hook-up or relationship = RELATIONSHIP.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant = I DUNNO. :))

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger = NO WAY.

77. Drank hard liquor = NOT EXACTLY A HARD ONE.

78. Lost glasses/contacts = MY EYES ARE 20/20 .. haha!

79. Sex on first date = if it's gonna be my FAVORITE ACTOR why not? :))))

80. Broke someone's heart = once! :D sorry. -.- now, It made me guilty. err.

81. Had your own heart broken = yes, actually the recent one had the strong impact to me. :((

82. Been arrested = if literally NO. :))

83. Turned someone down = my mom a couple of times. but with that.. uhh--recently yes. GUILTY. I knoooow. :|

84. Cried when someone died = LIKE DUH!

85. Fallen for a friend = STILL.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself =  somewhat yaah.

87. Miracles = maybe?

88. Love at first sight  = nope.

89. Heaven = yaah

90. Santa Claus = nope.

91. Kiss on the first date = favorite actor, yaaah. :D

92. Angels = not quite.

ETHICAL QUESTIONS.. =))

Q1: If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids

already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally

retarded, and she had syphilis; would you recommend that she have

an abortion?

Read the next question before scrolling down to the answer of

this one.

Q2: It is time to elect the world leader, and your vote

counts.

Here are the facts about the three leading candidates:

    * Candidate A

          o Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with

            astrologists. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and

            drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.

    * Candidate B

          o He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium

            in college and drinks a quart of whiskey every evening.

    * Candidate C

          o He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke,

            drinks an occasional beer and hasn't had any extramarital

            affairs.

Which of these candidates would be your choice?

Decide first, then scroll down for the answer.

Candidate A is Franklin D. Roosevelt

Candidate B is Winston Churchill

Candidate C is Adolph Hitler

.....and by the way:

Answer to the abortion question - if you said yes, you just

killed Beethoven.

Something to be solved. :) --- Hopefully.

pinsan ko nga pala. :))

MACKY: I miss you cuz. :( mwa.

makulit na bata. :)

LINNE, MIA, && KLINT:

pagka ingatan niyo bunso natin diyan aa, habang wala pa kami, uhm aliwin niyo na lang siya bukas guys! you make karaoke, or bonding na lang kayo bukas sa bahay with lolo. :) para hindi siya maging lonely or something like that. :* >:D< para yung isip nila tita at she2 hindi diyan kay macky..at para masagutan niya yung exams bukas ng maayos. labyoo guys. nightie! =D

cuzins! :D

GUYS! pray na lang din tayo okay? that everything will be okay .. :"> gosh. grabe ha. nawala lang sila ng 3 days or mahigit dami na nangyari. err. :3

lab ko to. =D