Kamusta ka?
At gusto ko sanang sumagot ka ng totoo. Yung walang ibang kasinungalingan. Kasi kahit sabihin mo namang okay ka, alam ko deep inside, hindi ka okay. Nalulungkot ka. Nalulungkot ka sa mga bagay sa paligid mo. Bagay na hindi mo nagawa dapat. Bagay na sana hindi mo na lang ginawa at bagay na sana magawa mo pagdating ng panahon. Mahirap sabihin sa iba kung gaano kasakit o kabigat yung nararamdaman mo kasi ayaw mo na kaawaan ka nila. Ayaw mong pag isipan ka nila ng kahit na ano. Pero alam ko, may isa kang dapat pagsabihan nyan. Isang taong makakaintindi na 'pag sinagot mong, "Okay lang ako.", hindi siya sasang ayun. Kasi ramdam nyang hindi ka okay. Na hindi ka masaya kahit pilit kang ngumingiti.
At kung sa tingin mong walang nakakaintindi sayo, lagi mong isipin na meron pa ren kahet papaano. Isipin mong nag aalala ako, isipin mong may isang estranghero sa malayo na nakakaramdam ng tunay mong feelings. At lagi kong sasabihin sayo, "Okay lang yan. Hindi mo kailangang itago saken ang tunay mong nararamdaman. Magiging okay ka din, tiwala lang, ha?.
-Strawberrytelle
The moment when you read this post you'll experience to have two different emotions; whether you'll end up sulking in your room or you'll feel that you're thought of and be overwhelmed. Well, I end up both but the sulking part is the one who arises the most. It's weird to feel like this with these type of event in life with all these school work and all other stuff. The point is, I don't know what to do, think or even say to people who is suffering from tragic experience while I'm feeling malfunction character as if I'm like an antagonist of my own. So pathetic. (I know) WhenI'm pushing people to get out of their depressing moments I end up happy for them while even I can't get out from my own depressing moment, very ironic. I usually laugh and smile in front of thousands of people but deep inside with in my thoughts I am bothered with everything around me especially on my side the problems with in my family, bestfriends, friends, classmates, and even myself. I never felt this when I was in first and second years of my life as if I'm enjoying my life back then. ..why now? -_- Depressive part of my life. I think, I'm lost in these BIG WORLD! Just can't help it. It sucks. I know. <//3
